I haven’t added many entries to my blog lately, I’ve had heaps to deal with and depression really seems to be getting on top of me, which really sucks.

People wonder whats wrong and the sad part is, I can’t even answer that myself. I’m lost in so many thoughts that i can’t even think for myself, I’m lost and I don’t know what to do,  I need to get out of home, I need support, I need a hug, I need a push into the right direction, I’m lost and i don’t even know why. I know a lot has to do with breaking up with Amber, As much as I love her with all my heart, apart of me doesn’t want to go back to her because I don’t want things to end up how they were again, I don’t want to be hurt by her or have her try to hurt me like she has, I knew she said things to hurt me but i never thought she would and it really hurt me deep down because for a long time i couldn’t trust anybody and she finally earned my trust and ended up cutting me deep… I think I just need to take things slow, think before I do anything and hope for the best, If it doesn’t work out, Then I know its time to move on…

Why can’t I find a girl who’ll love me for me and for the good and the bad…