The Life Of James Murphy.

I can’t write much…. Im failing year 10…. Sorry.

I need to get back on track and then I can keep blogging, I’ve got a great topic that’s aching to be bitched about!

I’ve been working flat out because where I work has just opened and people are going fucking crazy over a brand new shopping centre, it’s just a yawn to me because I’ve seen it so many times before it was open, it’s great being able to work there now though, Making money and being able to help people, I’m working hard and I can feel it in my muscles, I’ve worked all weekend and spent some time with friends, I’ve got a shift today (Sunday) in about 2 hours. I love going to work, nothing else matters and I just seem to focus on work. It’s great!

If I keep working and getting more shifts, I’ll be-able to buy my phone sooner :)! I’m looking at a HTC Diamond but I want to see how MSN works on it and how well the keypad works. Looks like a great phone though.

I’m off to get ready for work, I’ll post a blog tonight or tomorrow about how my life is going.

The last few days have fucking sucked, I’ve hit rock bottom in my opinion and my depression is doing more then sneaking back up on me, It’s really effecting me and how I am, even people around me are noticing the effects and the toll it’s taking on me, I can’t really pin point the problem, everything is just getting ontop of me and it’s taking it’s toll, I fucking hate being depressed and I just want to be happy.

I’ve felt so alone the last few days, I’m pushing myself away from things that I love and things that I love doing, I’ve suffered from headaches all week and haven’t really felt myself, I just want to give up…

Since I’ve been working a lot lately, I’ve been able to save money and I’ve always put off making songs because I don’t have a guitar, I’m pretty close to being able to afford a good guitar and I’m thinking about buying one so I can actually produce some songs.

Not sure what I’ll buy yet but I’m pumped and I’m going to start writing again, I’ve already got afew ideas, now to turn them into something.

I’ll post some lyrics/vocal recordings soon!

I got off work about 2 hours ago, had a hectic night at work with Tomothy and my managers, they all seemed really cool and my manager was really laid back, they were helpful but you could still see them as a friend and time just flew because the guys I was working with were up for a chat and we actually had a fair bit in common. I’ve only got one shift left at this store then I’ll actually be in my brand new store!

Right now at school we’re studying Romeo and juliet and lets be honest, It’s fucking shit. I owe my english teacher work which I’m going to have to hand in because I really cannot be fucked with an afterschool detention and I’m trying to keep a lot of my afterschool time free for work, concerts and being able to spend time on xbox and with friends, I want to change the person who I am so I’m getting out with mates more and hang around with different friends, I’m learning who’re my true friends and learning who means alot. ILY HAILEY

I’m off to play guitar hero 3, I may do these questions tomorrow…

I’ve had a pretty busy week of school, work and leisure. I’ve missed out on heaps of sleep but I think that the carpathian concert that I went to on sunday was worth how I felt on the way home.

We got into the concert about half way through and were lucky enough to see a band before Carpathian, I never heard this band before but they seemed alright, This didn’t seem like a normal gig that I’d go to, their was alot less moshing and the bands didn’t really push to people to mosh, afterall, It was a different genre of music.

I don’t really have much to write about the concert, I’ve got afew stories of how some cunt pulled my hair out but that’s about all. Right now I’m about to go to sleep then prepare for an exam I have for my Year 11 computer class.

- Night

As I promised!

I’ve been pretty lost about where I wanted to go for a career and what I wanted to do, I have my dreams but it’s hard to select a school course to become a vocalist, I’ve chosen something that can lead me in several directions and leads me to some great options. I’m still dreaming of becoming a vocalist or being able to run my own label, I’m actually launching a community site which should kick start my dreams in either of those directions. I’ll save that for another post though.

I’ve selected some pretty laid back subjects that I think I’m going to rather enjoy.
Year 11

• English 1 & 2
• Mathematics 1 & 2
• Accounting 1 & 2
• Business Management 1 & 2
• Information Technology 3 & 4 (This is advanced learning)

Year 12

• English 3 & 4
• Further 3 & 4 (This is the basic mathematics - I didn’t want to do methods or specialist)
• Psychology 3 & 4 (I had to pick this up as a year 12 subject because I was doing year 12 IT)
• Business Management 3 & 4
• Accounting 3 & 4

These numbers after my subjects probably mean nothing to you, In Australia, you complete a study of that subject a semester, so English 1 is first semester, English 2 is semester two then 3 & 4 are in year 12. I’m happy with my choices and have no regrets, they’re all subjects I’m interested in and I think I’ll go well at school.

I had to work last night, No big dramas really. I was confident even though this was my first shift in a store open to the public. I started out decent but made afew stupid errors, I was sent out into the store after awhile by myself with a cage of things to put away, I got half way through my cage and then had 2 guys approach me and say hello, I politely said ‘hello, how can I help you?’ and then was questioned about if I knew who they were, After saying no, the man removed his coat and revealed a managers badge. Boy was I shitting myself.

He made me feel like an ass, we exchanged conversation then he proceeded to say something that made me lose all my confidence, I didn’t pay attention to his face because I was in a room with 5-6 managers and I was nervous enough as it was, I was in the wrong store and this made me shake and feel sick, they’ve asked me to complete training with them so It shouldn’t be so bad but I’ve never felt so bad in my life

Tonight or tomorrow I’m going to post a blog about my school subject selection for year 11 and 12, I’m quite excited about this!

I’ve been thinking about monetizing this blog for some time and I know you’re probably reading this and thinking, how the hell could I do this when it’s a personal blog? It’s simple, this site does take time and money to keep up, my time is worth money and I’m sure I can help someone by offering cheap advertising or offering my readers something they’re interested in.

I’m not sure which direction I’m going to head towards, I’ve had adsense before and that didn’t work out to well. I want to keep this a personal blog and don’t really want to head towards selling out and marketing a whole post towards a product, I wouldn’t mind reviewing products in exchange for money or keeping the product, I could easily offer banner space. Maybe I should write some tutorials and monetize them with affiliate links of software that I had to use.

Anyone have any ideas? I’ve got a great amount of traffic and I seem to be just letting the money roll away. Leave a comment or email me.

I said I’d post this nearly a month ago, I’ve finally got some me time right now and I want to spend it writing a blog, I like keeping it up to date because I’ve had many people asking me about doing this more because they’re interested in my topics, So here’s a promised topic.. My views on life.

I know that life isn’t easy, I’m not a religious person and I do not believe in second chances, I think if you’ve hurt someone then you’ve ruined what you had between you and the person because things will never be the same again. Whenever I hurt a friend, I don’t believe I should be forgiven because that’s shooting my own beliefs in the face. I see the world has many religious people out there and I respect their beliefs but I really cannot stand if someone tries to convert me, I’ll listen to your views but It doesn’t mean I’ll start believing what you say, We all need to have our own opinion and I don’t intend on living my life by a book when I can easily tell right and wrong for myself. I don’t see swearing as such a bad thing, I don’t overuse swear words though, especially around older generations because I feel that in this day and age, we’ve sadly adapted to it and that’s now never going to change. I don’t really care about global warming or how fucked the world is, I’m only living in it and It really doesn’t fuss me.

The bit i’m going to write about now, it’s a complete fucking cunt and breaks your heart or cuts you deep inside. Friends or someone you date that keeps close with you for sex, money, to feel loved or to feel better about themselves, this really fucking shits me because if you’re dating a girl and you know shit is sliding down hill, you try to fix it, you could spend nights with it really getting to you. You question them if they’re losing love then they end up having a go at you because you don’t believe that they love you then end up dumping you afew days later when they’ve dragged you through some more fucking pain. Any person who does this, does fucking not deserve to be able to breathe and I really hope in their serious relationship where they think the person is one that they get treated like shit and really fucking hurt because innocent people don’t fucking deserve that.